Oh J.Lo what were you thinking? Her bejeweled catsuit is so far her most unflattering outfit for 2010 that is.

He however exemplified the meaning of not judging a book by its cover as though his exterior was badass, Dragon is the kind of person filled with  ideas, of artistry, compassion and of intellect that surpasses most people’s.  Cheerful, objective, optimistic are just some of the many fine qualities he possesses.

Over the years since having first met him, I would temporarily loose contact for various reasons. He was busy, I was busy etc,. though this never really hindered our friendship and there was never a real effort to reconnect once we both would come across each other. Nothing changed, sure we’d hastily try to catch up on each others lives but there was no awkwardness  just an instant reconnection.

I  was shocked the last time we reconnected [after losing touch for nearly a year] to find that he had been in an accident. Ironically the accident was not recklessness on his part. He was on his bike at a stoplight when a station wagon rammed into him. Obviously it was pretty bad as most motorcycle related accidents are. I believe the reason behind this is mainly due to the fact that the human body is exposed in comparison to being in a car. His injuries had him in the hospital for quite some time as he had explained to me. Metal was made part of his body to replace the bones that were greatly fractured. By the time he and I were reconnecting he was only starting the process of picking up the pieces.

Recovery for him was not easy. It involved more surgery in the coming months as well as medication to ease the pain and he was somewhat borderline dependent on fermented grapes. I know this because he told me so and because I saw it myself.  I remember warning him about his unknowing dependency and he had assured me several times that he did not guzzle the stuff down every single day.

I know I should have nagged him more but you can really only do so much. The best news  I got out of that tragedy was that he was finally with someone whom he cared for deeply and who reciprocated the feeling as well. I was psyched for him and also for plans of him flying over before heading home to his folks.

Months rolled by and slowly on the news famous figures, icons were passing away no longer existing. I remember thinking how tragic it was to lose these people who I have not personally met and yet feel some strong affinity with. Perhaps the music they created belonged to my childhood thus forever immortalizing them as part of my being or that their sacrifices their glamor, artistry somehow influenced me. These are the moments that somewhat define a part of who you have become.

August 2009;

An anxious feeling had slowly crept into my gut. It stayed there, camping out as flames from the campfire slowly started to blaze harder. Making the anxiousness intensify. Out of nowhere I suddenly had an urge to speak to Dragon. I tried for his number but stupidity made me neglect to ask him the last time we spoke to get his new mobile number. I decided to stalk him on messengers instead when I didn’t spot him there I tried checking up on him on one of the social networking sites he frequents.

There were several wall posts from him and some responses from friends. Most of the messages were cryptic but made me beyond anxious upon reading them. I now had dread that felt like a big hollow lump in my gut that was somewhat starting to inflate. It got bigger and bigger as days passed and more cryptic yet terribly morose messages flooded his page. I waited thinking I was perhaps just simply being paranoid and did not want to overreact to anything. Admittedly I was definitely nursing that dreadful feeling I prayed, I don’t pray often but that time I  did. I prayed everything was okay. Though somehow in my prayers it slipped past my tongue before I even realized I said it much less have thought that it was a possibility. I prayed for his peacefulness.

I Googled to check on local news in his area. There was nothing. A week passed and I stalked him again on his page still no clue and the last person who messaged and expressed the same concern as I had, has gone unanswered.

Then there it was, one more bout of Googling and I found what I had been dreading. My dear dear Dragon is forever disconnected from me and from people who hold him dear. He has gone away and no amount of reconnecting will ever truly bring him back.

I did not cry because I simply couldn’t. The loss is unexplainable. My grief felt frozen and I sat staring at the announcement of his demise and I suppose I was still in denial as I refreshed the page several times only to have a photo of his smiling face show up every single time accompanied by words that blurred and refused to be comprehended by my brain.

That night I got sick, felt cold all over and yet my temp was burning up. My grief was so bottled in that it had to get out one way or another. Up to this day I have no full idea the entire cause of his demise. I don’t think it will ever be appropriate to contact his loved ones to ask for the cause. Doing so will only cause them pain and I cannot bare to cause them any more because losing him is already monumentally painful.

It is human to wonder what caused it but by now it is unimportant to me and the only thing I hold importance to is the gift of his friendship of having known him and of having been lucky enough to have known the person he truly is.     {8-13-09}

“We are all a part of everything
The future, present and the past
Fly on proud bird
You’re free at last.”

-Charlie Daniels

What’s your bathroom loot?

soap = dove cuke soap

shower gel = dunno the brand it was just a Christmas pressie smells nice and lemony fresh though

facial wash = ice pore cleanser {jap brand can’t even read the characters}

toothbrush = hard bristle because my dentist said so

toothpaste = something i get from my dentist though i also have colgate

shampoo & conditioner = gargantuan pantene bottles my brother sends me also some bottles of coconut suave which i use when i miss the beach

wide tooth comb = i use when i condition my hair

back scrub brush = picked this up in M&S back in 2003 and it’s still pristine

pouffy netty looking scrub = for easy to reach areas

white sugar = i use for exfoliation/ also for waxing

green tea bags = i sometimes bathe with or use for my dry scalp

small bottle of extra v olive oil = super useful {make up remover, conditioner, great for legs after a quickie with the razor}

razor – for that quick fuzz removal

What’s your daily face cleansing routine?

a.m.

- wash with warm water add facial wash, lather, rinse with cold water.

pat dry

- put on some face meds to keep the zits away. pat on some eye cream

coz I have a serious case of dark circles. thank goodness no bags!

p.m.

- wash with warm water add facial wash, lather, rinse with cold water.                 rub with ice. pat dry

- put on some face meds to keep the zits away. pat on some eye cream

sometimes I cut out some cukes or use teabags and put them over my

eyes before I slather the eye cream

-I wish Google Maps had an “Avoid Ghetto” routing option.

-More often than not, when someone is telling me a story all I can
think about is that I can’t wait for them to finish so that I can tell
my own story that’s not only better, but also more directly involves
me.

-Nothing sucks more than that moment during an argument when you
realize you’re wrong.

-I don’t understand the purpose of the line, “I don’t need to drink to
have fun.” Great, no one does. But why start a fire with flint and
sticks when they’ve invented the lighter?

-Have you ever been walking down the street and realized that you’re
going in the complete opposite direction of where you are supposed to
be going? But instead of just turning a 180 and walking back in the
direction from which you came, you have to first do something like
check your watch or phone or make a grand arm gesture and mutter to
yourself to ensure that no one in the surrounding area thinks you’re
crazy by randomly switching directions on the sidewalk.

-That’s enough, Nickelback.

-I totally take back all those times I didn’t want to nap when I was younger.

-Is it just me, or are 80% of the people in the “people you may know”
feature on Facebook people that I do know, but I deliberately choose
not to be friends with?

-Do you remember when you were a kid, playing Nintendo and it wouldn’t
work? You take the cartridge out, blow in it and that would magically
fix the problem. Every kid in America did that, but how did we all
know how to fix the problem? There was no internet or message boards
or FAQ’s. We just figured it out. Today’s kids are soft.

-There is a great need for sarcasm font.

-Sometimes, I’ll watch a movie that I watched when I was younger and
suddenly realize I had no idea what the f was going on when I first
saw it.

-I think everyone has a movie that they love so much, it actually
becomes stressful to watch it with other people. I’ll end up wasting
90 minutes shiftily glancing around to confirm that everyone’s
laughing at the right parts, then making sure I laugh just a little
bit harder (and a millisecond earlier) to prove that I’m still the
only one who really, really gets it.

-How the hell are you supposed to fold a fitted sheet?

-I would rather try to carry 10 plastic grocery bags in each hand than
take 2 trips to bring my groceries in.

- I think part of a best friend’s job should be to immediately clear
your computer history if you die.

-The only time I look forward to a red light is when I’m trying to
finish a text.

- A recent study has shown that playing beer pong contributes to the
spread of mono and the flu. Yeah, if you suck at it.

- LOL has gone from meaning, “laugh out loud” to “I have nothing else to say”.

- I have a hard time deciphering the fine line between boredom and hunger.

- Answering the same letter three times or more in a row on a Scantron
test is absolutely petrifying.

- Whenever someone says “I’m not book smart, but I’m street smart”,
all I hear is “I’m not real smart, but I’m imaginary smart”.

- How many times is it appropriate to say “What?” before you just nod
and smile because you still didn’t hear what they said?

- I love the sense of camaraderie when an entire line of cars teams up
to prevent a dick from cutting in at the front. Stay strong, brothers!

- Every time I have to spell a word over the phone using ‘as in’
examples, I will undoubtedly draw a blank and sound like a complete
idiot. Today I had to spell my boss’s last name to an attorney and
said “Yes that’s G as in…(10 second lapse)..ummm…Goonies”

-What would happen if I hired two private investigators to follow each other?

- While driving yesterday I saw a banana peel in the road and
i nstinctively swerved to avoid it…thanks Mario Kart.

- MapQuest really needs to start their directions on #5. Pretty sure I
know how to get out of my neighborhood.

- Obituaries would be a lot more interesting if they told you how the
person died.

- I find it hard to believe there are actually people who get in the
shower first and THEN turn on the water.

-Shirts get dirty. Underwear gets dirty. Pants? Pants never get dirty,
and you can wear them forever.

-I can’t remember the last time I wasn’t at least kind of tired.

- Bad decisions make good stories

-Whenever I’m Facebook stalking someone and I find out that their
profile is public I feel like a kid on Christmas morning who just got
the Red Ryder BB gun that I always wanted. 546 pictures? Don’t mind if
I do!

- Is it just me or do high school girls get sluttier & sluttier every year?

-If Carmen San Diego and Waldo ever got together, their offspring
would probably just be completely invisible.

-Why is it that during an ice-breaker, when the whole room has to go
around and say their name and where they are from, I get so incredibly
nervous? Like I know my name, I know where I’m from, this shouldn’t be
a problem….

-You never know when it will strike, but there comes a moment at work
when you’ve made up your mind that you just aren’t doing anything
productive for the rest of the day.

-Can we all just agree to ignore whatever comes after DVDs? I don’t
want to have to restart my collection.

-There’s no worse feeling than that millisecond you’re sure you are
going to die after leaning your chair back a little too far.

-I’m always slightly terrified when I exit out of Word and it asks me
if I want to save any changes to my ten page research paper that I
swear I did not make any changes to.

- “Do not machine wash or tumble dry” means I will never wash this ever.

-I hate being the one with the remote in a room full of people
watching TV. There’s so much pressure. ‘I love this show, but will
they judge me if I keep it on? I bet everyone is wishing we weren’t
watching this. It’s only a matter of time before they all get up and
leave the room. Will we still be friends after this?’

-I hate when I just miss a call by the last ring (Hello? Hello?
Dammit!), but when I immediately call back, it rings nine times and
goes to voicemail. What’d you do after I didn’t answer? Drop the phone
and run away?

- I hate leaving my house confident and looking good and then not
seeing anyone of importance the entire day. What a waste.

-When I meet a new girl, I’m terrified of mentioning something she
hasn’t already told me but that I have learned from some light
internet stalking.

-I like all of the music in my iTunes, except when it’s on shuffle,
then I like about one in every fifteen songs in my iTunes.

-Why is a school zone 20 mph? That seems like the optimal cruising
speed for pedophiles…

- As a driver I hate pedestrians, and as a pedestrian I hate drivers,
but no matter what the mode of transportation, I always hate cyclists.

-Sometimes I’ll look down at my watch 3 consecutive times and still
not know what time it is.

-It should probably be called Unplanned Parenthood.

-I keep some people’s phone numbers in my phone just so I know not to
answer when they call.

-Even if I knew your social security number, I wouldn’t know what do to with it.

-Even under ideal conditions people have trouble locating their car
keys in a pocket, hitting the G-spot, and Pinning the Tail on the
Donkey – but I’d bet my ass everyone can find and push the Snooze
button from 3 feet away, in about 1.7 seconds, eyes closed, first time
every time…

-My 4-year old son asked me in the car the other day “Dad what would
happen if you ran over a ninja?” How the hell do I respond to that?

-It really pisses me off when I want to read a story on CNN.com and
the link takes me to a video instead of text.

-I wonder if cops ever get pissed off at the fact that everyone they
drive behind obeys the speed limit.

-I think the freezer deserves a light as well.

-I disagree with Kay Jewelers. I would bet on any given Friday or
Saturday night more kisses begin with Miller Lites than Kay.

in love with this kitchen wine cellar! I’m not a big wine drinker but I’d definitely want to have this in my kitchen.  I hope you’re taking down notes AMV .

More info on this awesome idea when I get my lazy bones to write the rest of this entry

Browsing some FB profiles when I came across TopShop’s albums. Since I have added them to the list of brands/products I am a fangirl of I have access over their posted albums.

This photo I nabbed was I believe taken in one of their outlet stores and the lovely lady is not TopShop model [I think, though please correct me if I am mistaken]. In any case the reason I grabbed this i because.. I simply adore those shoes!

known as the TopShop Winona Espadrille Wedge [£55]. This beauty comes in several different colors which is making my choice of purchase tougher.

the white i love as much as the fudge colored one. I have to admit that the candy pink and the terracotta pot colored wedges are equally tempting!

Not that it’s difficult to tempt me with a pair of shoes because I absolutely lurrve them!

next on my shoe list is this cute wedge from Nine West called the Beccari Wedge which costs around $80 which still goes into my shoe budget. The Beccari looks so chic something for lounging on a yacht or a beach bbq on a friend’s beach side abode

And if you think that I’m going on about wedges…  I found two more which are just as purrrty

I never got into the whole gladiator sandal shoe craze and this is perhaps the closest I will ever get to it.  the Christian Louboutin Salamanca wedge goes for a mere [?] $500 if you have that extra to throw into a pair of shoes. But alas I also adore the Christian Louboutin Barcelona which is also worth $500

The reason why I’m so taken by wedges as like any high heeled shoe they will give vertically challenged women like me the much needed illusion of looooong legs and yet is stable enough for the non stiletto users or simply for those who want the full support the wedge sole provides.

If  it’s not a tad obvious by now, YES! I LOVE SHOES!!Also I have been working my way into getting my first [of hopefully more] Christian Louboutin shoes or simply called Loubs. While I have yet to make the leap into shelling out and making a sizable whole in my bank account I have settled for other designers that carry the almost Loub signature designs. One such example is one of my favorites Steve Madden
Steve Madden offers equally stylish shoe designs which a fraction of the cost of Loubs.

Steve Madden’s TERIFIC in grey suede will only leave you $99 poorer.  The style also comes in black  or magenta suede

I don’t live on heels though. I can very well survive in flip flops and flats. In fact I am still mourning the loss of my favorite gold ballet flats which I got super cheap. So I did what any shoe fanatic would do.. I scoured the malls and hounded the shoe lady in charge of that brand name. Alas they no longer sell that particular design.

My search on the internet has led me to a similar looking pair however the HUGE price difference has kept me from snagging these French Sole gold ballet pump by Henrietta [$140.25]

I have come to believe that my shoe obsession can only mean one thing… I could be a missing grandchild of the her royal shoeness Imelda Marcos!

Ahh… how I wish it were so. My gran could suffice as a good copy though as she has been known to indulge in shoes as well.

Audrey Tautou definitely knows how to pick her roles

I feel like I’ve been dancing as sweat crawls down from my chest to my stomach

in reality all I’ve done is sit here and attach this link. Time to turn up the breeze